This is hard for me to write but I don't know if what I experienced was abuse. I'll write it briefly - I felt so ashamed after and I don't know why.
The guy in question came to give me a hug - he then got sexual with me, at various times I said we shouldn't/no but he then tried to have sex with me.
He then gave up but started to touch me again - I still resisted but then I just let him, he then also had sex with me. I just feel so confused