I’m so unhappy, largely because I am alone and wish at late thirties I was settled down with a history with someone.
I used to never give up dating, bounce back from loneliness with plans and a busy life. I was always sad about it but I coped fine.
Now though, the sadness is overwhelming. I am now worried that in itself will stop me being attractive to someone?! I’m having therapy etc but basically I am fundamentally different to a few years back. Now I am very very sad I don’t have that family dynamic. I worry I am too old for kids now, worry I am less attractive. List goes on. I do date but my heart is heavy...I know this feeling won’t go unless I meet someone special. I know then I may have a different set of complaints and it’s not plain sailing but the bottom line is that everyday I am sad and anxious m I am alone and will always be alone...that won’t change. Am I doomed anyway now? Has anyone met someone at their lowest? People say you have to be happy to meet someone... though I was for years and never did. Now I am at a point where I am low about the lack of relationship, the yearning will not disappear with travel or friends or anything.