Relationship over - panic attacks, no sleep

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I've had relationships end before, but I could always see why, incompatibility or whatever. But relationship ended 2 weeks ago (I think??) not been said, but he's not contacted me since discussing if everything ok. Confusing muddled answers, we're compatible on every level, can't talk about things, not sure blah blah

I have no clue if dating and getting to commitment stage the issue or if every word about loving me, future with me was a load of crap.

It's such a bad and stupid ending I'm not coping. I'm waking up having panic attacks, heart pounding, not eaten for days. I need to pull myself together my DC has exams, but I'm just in such a state.. ..

the darkest hour is just before dawn

Bollocks to that, just switch the light on!

How are you OP? Hope you are doing ok.

I'm not sure dating is worth it.

If you're the type to get feelings involved, but you're not bothered about long term, you may be right.

If you ultimately want to marry, then you're going to have to take the risk of opening your heart.

notthefordtype switching the light on's a nice pragmatic approach! Two nights sleep now - life changing after months and months of insomnia to a greater or lesser degree. I haven't had the guts to draw the line. Kicked into the long grass, but just enjoying feeling calmer and getting back on track at work.

You were spot on with the two relationship options. I don't necessarily want to marry, but I do want long term, so I guess try and learn and not make the same mistakes over and over......