It's an embarrassing and delicate matter about which I turn to the MumsNet community - but here goes. My partner left me 5 years ago, 12 months after our son was born. I've not been overly successful in meeting someone serious in that time, a bit of fun but I am still single. 18 months ago I was diagnosed with rectocele ( rectum bulging into the vagina) and a problem in the pelvic floor making going to the toilet a trial. Anyway, in November I went ahead with surgery. Oh boy it was way harder to get back in my feet than I thought. The pain went on at a serious level for 5 weeks and at 7 I still couldn't sit on a hard chair for more than 30 mins or stand for long. It knocked my confidence and fitness levels hard. I feel very low. Anyway, I want to get back on the dating horse and find Mr Right, but I have no confidence it all still works! It is very, very tight and no 'toys' are workable now. Anyway - to the point... I'm thinking of employing an escourt for a test run, but don't want a muscle bound jack hammer if you catch my drift - more of a sex expert / therapist. Anyone got any experience or a recommendations? Please no 'meet the right man and he'll understand' comments, I'd love to think this was the case, but it's a confidence in my ability thing I need to get over. Thanks all! E x