I have never had reason not to trust my DH. We have been together 9yrs, always socialise together in the evenings and he is not a pub type of guy. I recently saw a bank statement of his and noticed a transaction to a media company. This turned out to be a dating agency. I would normally just think it was a fraud payment someone made and was DH's justification for this when challenged. However, we have been under strain (me actually) suffering with acute stress and anxiety from work and I have become very antisocial, withdrawn and not wanting to have a physical relationship. I now wonder if I believe DH or whether I have pushed him away?