It’s been 10months now that we’re separated. The divorce is half way through and he’s been living with his new partner since a month after he moved out. He did genuinely meet her after we separated, but he must have checked out a while before if he could move on that fast?
I thought I was making progress, and healing. I have been dating a bit and I suppose part of the reason I feel this way is because I recently called it quits with someone I was seeing.
I just felt all the while that I would still choose my STBX in a heartbeat, and would do anything to have him back. We have a DD6, and she’s with him this weekend, and I really want to be there with them!
I am filled with regret for all the things I did and didn’t do, and I know I’m partly to blame for our separation. It’s so true that you don’t really know what you have until it’s gone.
Background: I was constantly dithering about whether we should separate or not as he had some narcissistic traits and I brought up divorce. The next day my friend saw him on Tinder (he says he didn’t actually meet anyone & had just joined because i brought up divorce) so I asked him to leave, and he met his new partner a week later.
I have a total block as to all the reasons we didn’t work and just miss him soooo much. 😢 Can’t believe it’s 10months and I still feel this way.