Fuck sake I'm 41 ....

[strongerthan]

And I've never had a relationship longer than 3 years.

AND ... I've only had 3 in 20 years.

Each time I get hurt.

I'm just fucking done with it all. If I never have another relationship again I won't be sorry.

Just having a SHIT, lonely day.

How can I fulfil my life and feel peace.

(I have a DC4.5, who rocks my world mind you. Lone parent, ZERO contact with biological Father)

Could of written your post OP.
I'm 39 longest relationship 5 years single ten years....
can't work out if I'm crap at relationships or just bad luck
No real advice as I'm similar situation but after another crap online dating experience almost feel like giving up.
Hopefully someone will be along to give some advice to us both.
I'm a single parent to with very little help so I know how it feels.

Wow! I actually get the impression there are more of us out there too.

I'm so happy with my DS, he is truly the greatest thing that ever happened to me & I am fulfilled whole heartedly in that sense.

But these lonely, long weekends are a fucker.

All we've done is go the supermarket, watched TV, I've cooked food, all the housework blah blah. Yay! Deep joy ....

I can go days without adult interaction, as I work from home also (my choice mind you)

I just honestly think I'll die single which should be fine, shouldn't it?

Like you, I've just had a another disastrous relationship that ended earlier this year after 10 YEARS single FFS ... if it's another 10 years I'm 51 ... and probs even more cynical and selfish Hahha!

I need to feel ok about being on my own, which I am to some extent, but it's just those times you "feel alone" not necessarily "lonely"

Well @user1490465531 ..... I wish you peace and happiness whatever lies ahead for you.

Thank goodness for our special DC's

Let's be honest neither of us want to be alone forever and why should we?
For me I'm not giving up with online dating I think with all these millions of men out there surley there's got to be someone out there for us.