My mum passed away last year and I'm still in shock. She was my best friend. I felt very guilty for not believing her when she said she was ill and doctors never took it seriously. Our family has been dessimated. One sibling blames me entirely and we had a very difficult Xmas.
Dad has sold the house and moved to smaller place but still expects me to visit every day and cook and clean though he tells me off when I do this and says I should rest. But if I didn't clean the house would be a mess. Yesterday the food burned. The kitchen v small and cooker old. He got mad and said 'you make my life hell'. Since reading MN I now know he financially abused mum. She worked but he never let her have her own bank card. I gave her money when we went shopping. She wanted to go private for tests when she got ill but I resented always having to give her money and refused. She died and I hate myself. My dad was going to buy a house down south but now wants me to get a mortgage in my name even tho I have my own home and can't afford to move south. My siblings don't speak to me. I am having counselling but I feel worse than ever. I wish I was with my mum. I have no pleasure in my life at all. What would you do?