Have been with my fiancé nearly 8 yrs. Have 2 DCs together.
Last night I went to bed about 11pm leaving him downstairs drinking on his own. He told me today he stayed up til 4am and drank nearly a litre of vodka.
When he came to bed early hours of this morning I was awoken by him penetrating me with his fingers. I told him no I don't want to I'm too tired but he continued. He performed oral sex on me (this is the grey area for me) I had an orgasm. Then he started to have intercourse with me. I didnt say no because I was scared ofhis reaction so I went along with it even though I didn't want to. Afterwards he cuddled me and said he loved me and was sorry for everything (he has treated me like crap recently)
I mentioned to him this evening I dont like it when he is forceful and demanding like that, he called me a weird person and said if he had raped me then why didnt I call the police.
I don't know what to think.