I don't know who my father is, I understand that he knew me for the first few months of my life and nothing further. My mother and father were not married, infact I believe it was only a few week/month relationship. He was not named on my birth certificate, just black lines where a name should be.
My mother didnt raise me, my grandparents did and I have not felt any need to find my father, just always had a vague curiosity about who he is. My grandfather passed away a year ago and since then thoughts of my father have been going through my head.
My grandmother (my mothers mother) now lives with me and we have discussed this on a few occassions and I have said I want to find him, she has agreed and said ok but that is it. I will be speaking to my mother about it soon, not sure whether or not it will cause yet another fall out but thought I should discuss it with her before I did anything. As much as we dont get along I would hate for her to find out from someone else, I think it would hurt her too much.
Anyway, where was I........ I just dont know where to start really, I am guessing that as he was not named on my birth certificate it is going to be almost impossible, perhaps this is an impossible task I should just give up on??
Well I shall stop rambling on, thank you for reading this and any help or pointers in the right direction will be great
Em x