Sunny you asked me what i expected to hear on this thread. you have all been super helpful.
I didn't like what one of you said about the child free living a lonely life. you do not need children to be happy and fulfilled.
My now ex girlfriend wants me to phone her later and she is whatsapping me asking to reconsider and that i would make an amazing father to our child. I feel so terrible.
I saw a counsellor to explore why i am against family life. She said the fact my father stuck around but never spoke to me much unless he had to, and this most likely was a damaging factor in my conditioning.