I'm not sure I can take much more

[SoSoTiredOfLife]

Hi,

This is my 1st post here so apologies if I don't use correct abbreviations etc.

I don't really know where to start. I feel like life's spiralling out of control. I just want it all to stop.

Stbx left me in August whilst I was pregnant with our 4th child. I found out in September there was someone else. I've spent months being amicable, over helpful. Doing everything I can to make things easier for us all.

I wish I could hate him but I can't. It still hurts so much. I've found out he's moving away with her and her kids. It's broken my heart.

Our family business is on the verge of failing which means I'll potentially lose my home. My daughter is struggling day in, day out. I had to call an ambulance last week as my son stopped breathing. My grandmother died last month and now both an auntie and uncle are terminally ill. Last night I went on a date and he assaulted me.

I'm just so so tired of struggling, being alone. I want my life back.

I don't really know why I've written this....I just need to get it off my chest.

X

I'm sorry this is happening to you, it sounds fucking awful and I think anyone would be struggling in the circumstances.

Personally my first step would be reporting the assault, and then I think I'd take a step back from dating and concentrate on recovering from everything that has happened to you.

Try to differentiate the things that can be changed, and the things that can't, to avoid being overwhelmed.

Moving away from his own kids? What an absolute dick. I hope he's paying you what he should be. You can't see it now, but you will end up with the better life while ten years down the line he'll realise he has no relationship with his own children.

Thank you. He has been giving money every month but has just left his job (worked with the family business) He also does see them regularly. I can't fault him on that front. Although he was using that as a way of keeping his foot in the door so I no longer allow him in the house. It would be easier if we didn't still get along so well.

It just feels like there's a problem round every corner then I feel guilty for complaining when there are so many people worse off than me. X

Who is involved with the family business, just the two of you?

If so he is despicable to walk away and leave you to manage it alongside caring for four children including a tiny baby.

Do you have support?

It's my dad's business but we are both small share holders. I'm just so tired of it all. I'm sorry for posting when I'm such a mess. I do have support but I feel they're tired of it all now it's almost 8 months down the line. I just have no strength left and although I know I have to keep going I wish I could just run away. X

Can you talk more about the assault that happened last night? You do have a lot going on right now, but that is the one item that stuck out to me as being higher priority to deal with right now.