Hello,
I'm not really sure what this is going to achieve but I would appreciate a bit of a "Hive mind" to get a little perspective on a relationship issue I'm having at the moment.
I've been in a relationship with DH for 8 years, no kids and the majority of the time we get on great.
DH has always struggled socially and around a year or so ago, developed a friendship with a couple of colleagues. We had had our ups and downs, as any relationship does, and DH started to behave secretively. My suspicions were much later confirmed (not by DH's admission I might add) and that it had resulted in a 6month emotional and physical affair with one of the colleagues as well as a physical relationship with an ex. So many lies unraveled that I did not know who DH had become.
The "Truth" put me into a depression that I received medication for and I was off work for 6 months
We decided to put the past behind us and try and rebuild the relationship and moved away to a different town for a fresh start.
Now, I'm not as emotionally literate as DH and have not had a great experience at discussing my feelings in the past, on a spectrum of emotional range, mine tends to be quite narrow and DH's quite broad. I'm finding it hard to rebuild trust and the affairs have had a complicated effect on me that I don't really understand. I find myself snapping at DH over trivial little things, it's not a conscious decision to take it out on him, it's just that my irritation threshold for him is a lot more sensitive. I deal with negative emotions and anger in short, sharp bursts and then return to normal, this has the opposite effect on DH, whom these have a culminative effect and are really starting to cause problems.
I am financially supporting us both and I'm starting to feel a little suspicious about him again. I have reason to believe he's looking to move out when financially able and that he keeps looking at the(affair) colleague's Facebook page.
Am I flogging a dead horse?