It's my 3 year wedding anniversary tomorrow

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We split up 18months ago(my choice) but have only not been in close contact in the last 6months.

I still miss him badly. Wonder whether I made the right decision.

Sometimes I'm sure I did. Othertimes when I am obsessing about him and his new girlfriend I just wish I woul have pushed those feelings that caused me to break up with him aside.

Ahhhhhh when will it get easier?

I don't know why you split up but they must have seemed like good reasons at the time. When you mention his new girlfriend are you feeling resentful that he has successfully moved on? Have things not worked out for you the way you expected?