I read something on a good friends blog, which was about me. I wasn't named, but the sentiment behind it was that I have never got over my dh leaving me yrs ago, and that if only i could see it as a gift. That I have so much love to give but no outlet for it, and that until i let go of him i will never be able to walk the path i deserve.
I was totally shocked and contacted my friend, and to put this into context, her dh left her more recently, and she has started a self help type blog.
Now we have chewed over many many times what has happened to us both over the yrs, but i feel so judged. She said she never intended it that way and was sorry i saw it like that.
I have decided to end our friendship, because i feel now that anything i say will be judged as being wrong in her book. She may well feel ok about her marriage, but I just don't think she should have used my so called 'non letting go of mine' to point out something. I feel she has totally misrepresented my situation. I have told her this is what it feels like but she doesn't understand why i feel this way. To me this is a major problem in what seemed to be quite a good understanding friendship. And to think she thought it ok to share on her blog, which is read by by people we both know.
This is all such a bolt out the blue.
So, I have explained how i felt, and she doesn't get it. Said she has 'nothing but compassion for inability to fully let go of my pain of my ex!! But this seems not compassionate but patronising.
She knows how hard it has been for me to let go when he has caused ongoing chaos, but i have let go!!!
It's sad to lose a friend, and i am generous hearted, but i feel there is no going back for me. It seems hard to stick to how i feel tho. Does it get better.