bb!!, another big well done from me too!!
seven weeks is marvelous!!
i have had a good evening - i have had a row with my mil - i have known this woman for 10 years, i have bitten my tongue again and again, she is a nasty piece of work and tonight i had taken enough - she has had both barrels!!
, i feel calm and serene, i have said my piece, meant what i said, done it sober and my sils all think im wonderful!
(she is a second wife, not dhs dm!)
when i began this sobriety thing i thought long and hard about honesty, mine and other peoples, i have listened to some hard truths, taken it in and where i can i have acted on it - i have found that that honesty is affecting all areas of my life - if something needs saying, i now say it, i dont brood, stew on things, let things fester etc, i think about it, decide what i need to say and then come out with it - i dont mean being cruel, i still think a white lie to save a persons feelings is ok ('oh yes, your choice of paint colour is lovely, ive always wanted a puce bathroom', sort of white lie)im not sure if this comes from feeling in control because im sober or if im kind of maturing now that im not half pissed all the time, if my emotions are not kind of stunted, iyswim? - whatever it is, i feel quite pleased at this turn of events - i feel like im now sort of allowed to have feelings, that they are real and count for something, my feelings have to be taken into account, they cannot be dismissed as the wailings of drunk!, anyway, tonight i have struck a blow for down trodden daughters in law!!
- i feel fucking fantastic!! 