Hi there, I'm a much older mum (45) with 2 teenage children from a previous marriage. I have been with my on-off partner for 5 years and found out in Jan I'm expecting. Everything on paper tells me I should terminate, life is hard enough as a single mum already and I have been made redundant due to COVID. It's a struggle paying the bills and in an effort to provide some security for my existing kids I have just begun training for a new career. At my age there are also risks to the baby's health. My partner has said he'll support me whatever but I don't think he means it, his initial reaction was that it was completely unplanned, a huge shock, and we should terminate. I feel I can''t rely on his promises, he has never proved himself before and the relationship has never been a stable one. The problem is i just can't bring myself to do it - this is my baby, no matter how tiny, and my last chance of being a mum again. I can't stop crying. I have the tablets here at home and am running out of time to decide - I just don't know what to do. The thought of starting again on my own, giving up on my training and not being able to provide a decent future for any of us is terrifying.