surgical termination booked - terrified :( any positive stories?

[BFPanxiety]

I do have a previous thread about anxiety when I got my BFP a few weeks ago (hence the username).

Since then, I've discovered that it's actually PTSD that I have - from having my DD 19 years ago.

To cut a long story short, for a number of reasons, I decided that a termination would be best for me. The hospital appointment wasn't great, the nurse tried to put me off having a surgical by saying there were big risks attached to it - she actually said 'you're a big girl' . However, I insisted that a surgical was right for me as I think having to pass the tissue under a medical, would cause me further anguish.

I was then told I'd need a blood test at the consultation. I am absolutely petrified of needles and told the nurse this. She then responded with 'well, if you don't have the blood test then you can have a termination' . At this point I was mid panic attack at the thought of the needle and insisted I couldn't go through with it. She then backed down and said that they'd take blood when I was under GA for the surgical.

So, my appointment is Monday. I have to fast from midnight, and be at the hospital for 7.30am. DH will come with me.

I'm terrified. The needle in my hand is my biggest worry - do you think they'll give me some Valium or something to take first?

Also, how long will I be in for? Will DH be waiting around all day? And what about bleeding afterwards? Will it be really heavy and last for weeks? We're due to go on holiday next weekend and although the GP has said I should be fine to fly, I'm terrified that I won't be.

Having googled, I've read some horror stories. Does anyone on here have any positive stories that they wouldn't Mind sharing please? Or anyone that could just hold my hand even.

[Imogenalice123]

Hiya guys I'm in tomorrow can you remind me of your stories! I'm soooo nervous!!! Xx