I cannot believe this has happened to me - I just feel completely stunned / mortified / stupid. It took us two years of trying and all sorts of stuff before i fell pregnant with the twins and after being told that I would probably need a hysterectomy in the future and my chances of more kids were virtually zero this has happened and I feel so sick.
FFS the twins arent even a year old and I am completely failing to cope with them so the thought of another baby is just way out there. Went to the doctors today to discuss "sorting the problem" and it was frankly the most humiliating experience of my life. Was treated like a completely stupid and irresponsible fool and made to feel even worse than I already do. Ended up in tears while doc sat there and finally he stood up gave me a piece of paper and said that if I change my mind to make sure I cancel the appt so as not to waste anyone's time.
Looks like it will be about 3 weeks before i can have a termination - ffs by then I will be about 12 weeks gone and probably showing. Its ridiculous. In the meantime I am suffering as much as when I was carrying the twins - constant dizzyness, nausea, exhaustion etc and these are just constant reminders of this terrible situation. And of course this time I am only getting about 5 hrs sleep a night anyway thanks to the twins.
I know I am just feeling really sorry for myself tbh but I just wish someone would give me a break. DH wants to murder the doc who told us we couldnt have any more kids - v helpful and thats about his total contributuion to the problem. Just cant believe this has happened to me. Dont know how I am going to get through the next few weeks, never mind the guilt afterwards.