Found out this evening and we are both just filled with shock really. We are already so lucky have a healthy boy (7) and girl (4), and this has thrown us sideways especially as we were taking precautions. I will be turning 40 soon and just feel too tired to be starting over, even though I know it's quite the norm for some to be starting their families at this age. I feel as though I was just starting to get some "me" time back and being able to breathe. My health isn't exactly 100%, I'm awaiting gallbladder removal and still carrying some excess baby weight which I can't seem to shift. Add to that I wasn't doing any pre-natal care as we weren't actively trying to conceive, I'm concerned what will happen in that respect too. My husband has just been made redundant however will be receiving a decent package, and is already being headhunted so should be OK on that front. We have supportive families though grandparents are getting on a bit. I am very aware of how some would give anything to see those pink lines so I don't mean to be insensitive, just the others were planned so new feelings for us. Not sure what I hope to gain from this exactly but sat here in tears and just needed to get it off my chest, as we don't intend to tell anyone else, at least at the moment. But I suppose if there are any similar situations then advice would be welcome. Thank you x