Hi
I am just riddled with anxiety at the moment.
For context.
-Positive Pregnancy Test - 24th September.
-Thought I was having a miscarriage about a week later, lower back pain, strong period pains and passed a 'lump/blob' which was purple/grey in colour which i assumed to be the pregnancy. I can only describe it as a blob which looked a bit 'seal-like' with two parts either side that looked like what would be arms.
-Told I had a PUL at early private scan (7th October)
Pregnancy HCG results to date:
-435
-428
-535
-461 -METHOTREXATE INJECTION
-365 (admitted to hospital for dizziness so they did bloods)
-338 (Day 4 post injection)
-229 (Day 7 post injection)
I am now day 8 post methotrexate.
Whilst i am incredible grateful and relieved my bloods have dropped since the injection and surpassed the 15% target - I am so anxious regarding rupture.
I have this huge fear that I am slowly bleeding out and I just don't know - as I only have slight pains in my right here and there which if i wasn't going through this i wouldn't even think twice about. Would i know if i was internally bleeding? i just fear as i haven't had a scan now in over a week i am just living not knowing and my HCG has gone down because its bleeding out?
If my HCG is dropping does this mean my ectopic is getting smaller so I am getting less and less at risk of rupture?
I am also just so confused by the concept that three scans just couldn't see anything anywhere - does this mean I potentially didn't have an eptopic and it could be retained tissue? or does it mean it was so small to begin with that it was never a huge risk of rupture? Also the 'thing' i passed i am so confused as to what that could've been if there's still sign of an ectopic.
This is my first pregnancy and i'm just overwhelmed by the past 2 and a half weeks so i apologise if this post is super hectic - running on barely any sleep and a lot of sickness and tiredness from the jab - please feel free to drop also your experiences on the injection or your stories!
Thanks so much in advance!
C