My first pregnancy. I'm early in my pregnancy, 10 weeks. Only closest family and best friend know currently, but my sister who is so so excited for me was jumping at the bit to begin organising and discussing baby shower plans, which I love and appreciate, she's excited for me and it's so kind. To begin with, I was going along with it... but over the last couple of days; it dawned on me. It's not actually something I really want.
I have discussed it with her and voiced my feelings, I don't have an overly close group of friends bar my best friend. The rest are really just here and there friends, can't sometimes go a whole year without meeting, and work colleagues who I do care for dearly.. but, it's just not that deep. I don't have a big family with lots of aunties and cousins and nether does my husband. So it'd of only of been a small affair anyway, but the thought of even spending a afternoon sharing my baby joy and journey with people who I know don't really care (if you know what I mean) just doesn't appeal to me.
I think I only plan to have the one baby. I've never seen myself with several... so part of me thinks am I being a kill joy and should embrace it. Or is it normal to feel like this and should I just stick with my gut feelings on it?
My sister had suggested she'll organise something for me and her and maybe my mum. Spa day or something cute. And I'm sure my work colleagues will want to do something which I don't mind, but I just want low key, like an afternoon tea and home.