Very confused

[Allthechangenamestaken]

Hi, I am a regular and have changed my name.

Just found out that I am accidentally pregnant, we already have two school age children and I am just about to start a new job in the New Year though not signed up to any contract yet.

DH and I also have been having financial issues and relationship problems. He is also nine years older than me so will be 67 when this child was 18.

Though part of me would love another baby the rational part of me thinks it would be madness so I am going to see the doctor this week about a termination.

I have told no one and am avoiding all my friends at the school gates as I feel huge guilt about this.

Really just wanted to tell someone and I know there are people on here who will judge me but I need to get it of my chest.

I think it is all unravelling...

I gave DH a hard time last night, really don't want to be in this relationship any more. I know it is not a supportive relationship, it started off as a dependent relationship and I have supported DH financially and emotionally over ten long years. He said he will change, but I don't believe he will.

Now this afternoon i summoned up the courage to say that "I'm not sure that I want to terminate this baby" And, his response was to say that it was ok not to be sure. Full stop. And now he has gone out to get a newspaper and pick the boys up.

B***ks

S**t, now I am worried that he is picking the boys up. This is silly and irrational I know but I think I better go up to the school.

Sounds like you've come a long way.......
Now sit down and think about how you can make things work as a working single mum.
Take your time, don't rush.
XXX

Hello

How many weeks are you, do you have any idea? Because even if termination would be right for you (and being very blunt, I doubt it) you do not seem in the sort of state of mind to decide that right now!
Consider talking things through with a sympathetic outsider, such as CAREConfidential 0800 028 2228 (Unplanned Pregnancy and Abortion helpline).

What is the problem with him picking the boys up?

You can have this baby on your own, you know.