14 Weeks Pregnant - Constantly Worried and Not ‘Feeling’ Pregnant…

[L56x]

Hi all,

I know its a late one - thanks to the daunting insomnia creeping in these last 2 nights (which i had regularly before finding out i was pregnant)

I am technically 14 weeks pregnant today and just feel under the weather about the certainty of being pregnant still…

I suffered a MC back in December 2019 and in all honesty I hit rock bottom pretty hard. I started up smoking again as I used it as a coping mechanism for stress (yes, I know thats bad 🙄 - dont come for me in the comments) and just couldn’t find myself again.

After practicing extremely safe sex to avoid disappointment again, I found out I was pregnant this April. And since then I have non stopped worried about whether this pregnancy will be successful.

At my ‘12 week dating scan’ (were i should of been 12+6) I was pushed back to 11+2. In all honesty I cant say whether this was completely accurate as the little one would not stay still and had to empty my bladder twice during the scan making it harder to take the measurements!

Now im ‘14 weeks’ today I just dont feel pregnant and im dredding the worst (partner is really laid back so if i mention any worries he gets annoyed and tells me to ‘stay positive’)

And to add - ive had early scans and all measurements were behind they said but not to worry. Even got put in the ‘under 5mm gestation sac mean at 9w+6’ - which after reading about is apparently impending MC, yet reached the dating scan milestone 🤷‍♀️

Sorry for the essay but what im hoping for from this post is if there are any moms out there who experienced the same as me - cant seem to find similar stories out there.

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@L56x so glad work has been keeping you busy 🙂 Has it been a good distraction? How are you feeling about Friday? Wishing you tremendous luck for then and will be thinking of you 🍀💗

I had my scan at 20+3 yesterday and I'm relieved to say that everything is fine so far - phew! 😪 I apparently have an interior placenta which can mean that I won't feel movements as much, which makes me feel better about not having felt any convincing movements yet. The bambino was stretching it's arms, yawning and crossing and uncrossing it's legs during the scan and I couldn't feel a thing! It's kind of mind blowing! 😊

@BambiOnIce80 Oh definitely but it has its up and downs. Long hours, long commute but currently rolling around my desk with a yoga ball everyday thanks to my ongoing pgp 😂 thank you so much! Ill be sure to let you know how I get on 🤞

And ohhh my, im so happy for you! 🎉 It seems like you have an active bean so the little one is definitely going to keep you busy for a long time! And aww well at least that provides some comfort and just shows not every pregnancy is the same - not at all hunky dory like the films!

I am currently having weird quick sensations when sat at work but then I’m like ‘hmm was it just gas lol’ so I cant tell if i'm having them flutters or not! Stomach has pushed out round more towards the middle and top of my stomach so not sure what’s happening there…looks like ive swallowed a basketball but hopefully all will even out! 😂

Look forward to hearing more updates and if you ever need a chat, I’m always here 😊☺️

@L56x I'm guessing you've told work now seems you're rolling around on your yoga ball by your desk?! 😂 I love that mental image! 😄 My back is starting to twinge like mad, so I'm thinking you're really onto something there. My BB hug me pillow arrived last night and, OMG, it is a game changer! Best nights sleep I've had in weeks 😴 How did you get on with finding some maternity clothes in the end? Are they keeping your basketball comfy?! 😉

I know what you mean about the weird sensations and thinking "is that baby or gas?! 🤔" 😂 I think I'm feeling more confident that the weird, mild prodding sensations I'm having (particularly in the evening and when I go to bed) are baby now that I've seen them shifting about on the scan... it feels really strange to actually begin to believe that this looks like it's really happening now! 🤯

Good luck again for tomorrow 🍀 I'll be thinking of you 💓

@BambiOnIce80 Sorry for the delay in reply! Aha my work mates have no clue yet, only my manager is aware just incase work becomes too strenuous, which is can be nearly everyday 🙄 They probably have speculated between themselves but nobody has asked probably because they think I might just be a little bit chubbier 😂 I will be hopefully spilling the news soon as they have a social teams drink coming up and that would be so hard to avoid the topic then!

I have started creeping into maternity clothes but still remaining in oversized tees thanks to the ever changing weather, its really helped my case! 🙏

Unfortunately had the scan and some complications have arose. I am swiftly being referred to specialist consultants to see whats going on and whats the next steps but I have been told not to worry too much. Hopefully its something small that can be helped out 🤞 I will be sure to keep you updated though!

Awww i know what you mean! As soon as i hear some reassurance, Im going buggy shopping lol! Have you started planning or are you much more organised than I am 😂 I cant wait, feels so real now!

I know how upsetting a curveball can be at these scans @L56x 💐 My take on it is that this is the exact kind of thing these scans are designed for - to spot anything that needs early intervention and get us to the specialist that can do their best for the best outcome for us and the baby. Did they give you any indication of when your appointment with them is going to be? I'm here if you need to talk/vent/think out loud 💗

I really haven't started properly planning anything at all! The old fear has crept in this morning that something has/is going to go wrong 🤦🏻‍♀️ Not helped by the fact the the bambino has been quiet since last night... what I wouldn't give for some flutters/pops/jabs right now! I guess we'll see how today goes before I fully start freaking out.