I'm so tired of this :(

[Ironytheoppositeofwrinkly]

As my title suggests, I'm at the end of my rope at the moment. I've had 5 miscarriages and a stillbirth, and I'm on treatment for the cause of those losses. But, guess what, yesterday at 9 weeks I've started spotting, and I've got up this morning to find my boobs have deflated and I have cramping too. Almost noone in real life knows I'm pregnant so I have nobody to talk to, and I'm just so done with this horrible cycle :( I really thought this one was going to work.

Oh OP, I’m so sorry to hear. It must be so difficult to process.
I really hope it’s a false alarm for you this time. Sorry I’m not much help just know I’m here with an ear if you need it. Lots of big hugs

OP that’s rough!!! I shall keep all my fingers and toes crossed that this baby sticks 🤞

Have you had any mental support / counselling? Regardless if this pregnancy continues I would honestly recommend it.

Nothing I can say which make this situation better, sending hugs!

I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine the pain you’re going through.

Life is so unfair at times. Sending hugs

Thanks ladies. Just to add confusion to upset, I've just been to the toilet, and my cm is back to lovely and white, and my boobs are big and sore again! I have a scan booked for Saturday at the EPU so hopefully everything is okay.

Thinking of you. I hope all is ok.

Sending lots of hugs OP I hope everything goes well at your scan.

I have the same spotting and back to watery creamy white and back again and my boobs I can hardly keep up with sometimes they are like rocks and other times like a sack of custard!

I really hope everything goes well this time, it's easy to other think the symptoms and for us to think "we have experienced it before and this is exactly the same" but sometimes it's just us putting the worse thought in our heads

Let us know how you get on at the scan!

All the positive vibes to you!

It's another MMC unfortunately :(