I'm just looking for someone to talk to I think, other than DH as no one else knows - not even our parents or our DS.
I had two positive pregnancy tests on Thursday, one am and one pm (to make sure), which were a massive shock and surprise as we had not planned a pregnancy.
My periods have been nearly non-existant since I was taken off the combined pill in October 2015 so have barely nothing to go on. My husband has had some ED problems due to a medical condition, so sometimes we've just jumped on the chance while we had it, as putting on a condom would make him go soft again. It's been a case of ignorance and 'that it wouldn't happen to us' sort of thinking. But it has and now we have to deal with the consequences.
However, I had some brownish discharge on Friday afternoon, then while at work, this turned to pink streaked stringy like discharge which I assumed was normal. (I can't remember having any of this with my DS 6 years ago). Last night, I started bleeding, bright red blood and have carried on bleeding all day today, however, it's only there when I 'wipe' after going to the toilet, and there's nothing on the pads I've been wearing to 'soak' it up. I've obviously taken to google (not normally a good idea in my case), and most websites say there's nothing they can do unless I'm soaking through at least 1 pad an hour, which I'm not or I'm in severe pain, again which I'm not. I've had a couple of mild cramps, as if I'm on a period but nothing I'd class as sinister. Bleeding is almost like a 'normal period' in colour, consistency and has small blackish coloured clots, ranging from 1mm - 200mm in size. I've not noticed any other tissue etc. I don't want to go to the hospital to sit for hours with my son in pyjamas to be sent home saying there's nothing they can do.
My initial thoughts were that I'm miscarrying, although I'm not 100% sure as I'm still experiencing symptoms such as tender breasts, 'bubble-like' feeling in my tummy (I had this with my son also), hungry and thirsty, metallic taste in my mouth and feeling nauseous - especially when brushing my teeth, which is what triggered the pregnancy test in the first place.
Pregnancy test puts me at 2-3 weeks, but according to their leaflet, you add 2 weeks on to this as this is what a doctor would do (clearblue digital), so this puts me at 4-5 weeks pregnant. I'm aware at this stage that the hospital or doctor would be unlikely to do anything.
Just someone to talk to would be appreciated. Or at least know that someone may have been through the same thing. I can't help but feel guilty about it and that it's my fault it's happened, as I wasn't too overjoyed when I found out - have just settled into a new job and started a new college course to train for my career, so not the best time, but we've discussed it and come round to the idea.