Dreams - juxtaposition

[Kalim8]

Had a good dream followed by a nightmare.

A couple of nights ago, I had a comforting dream of a rambling building, it seemed to be full of rooms of friendly students chatting earnestly, and there was a marquee outside, where my parents were.

Initially it felt normal, then I realised my mum was dead (it's coming up to an anniversary of her death) and that this must be a dream, so we had a lovely hug (but didn't speak, I thought if there wasn't going to be much time, a hug meant more than words).

The next night, I dreamt that dh and I had been selected, along with many other people, to be removed as surplus population. All the children left the room (ours were smiling, they had no idea what was going on), only adults were being killed off. People were nodding sagely and signing forms, going willingly to die as if it was normal and acceptable. I screamed and shouted against it and called everyone disgusting for allowing such a horrible practice. It was so normal that one of the - I don't know what to call them - judges? Decision makers? - kids were playing with a ball while the selected adults were signing their own death warrants.
Then I died.
And I woke up - and I went back into the dream to tell dh that when you die, you wake up and he nodded as if he already knew.

I've done a bit of dream interpretation with success before,

It's interesting that both dreams are lucid, that you know you're dreaming during the dreams. I don't know if this is usual for you?

Lucid dreaming involves heightened awareness, they tend to come during a time in life when you are alert to your surroundings, living in the here and now, issues of the past and present are not as relevant, eg during a period of learning or dramatic change, familiarising yourself with the unfamiliar.
If you have lucid dreams all the time, it usually indicates a very alert and aware personality, high intellect, strong sense of spirituality.

It's lovely that you hugged your mum during your lucid dream. This is a wonderful and really positive dream, it predicts good luck and suggests you have made a wise choice (or choices) with good foresight that is to benefit you greatly in the near future.
To dream of a passed mother indicates matters of intuition, "gut feeling" / instinct and the hug indicates a positive choice.
You are also clearly thinking of her a lot coming up to an anniversary of her death, I am so sorry for your loss.

The death dream is very interesting. Don't worry. It's again rather positive particularly the lucid element, where you went back into your dream to tell your husband that he will wake up. I'll try to interpret,

Firstly death almost always represents change, the end of an era, new beginnings.
The circumstances surrounding death in your dream are very interesting, a world where an excess population is skimmed off, the population in your dream represents issues of thoughts and ideas, and the killing off represents a purification of these thoughts and ideas, I think perhaps these are worries you have. The children are spared but the adults are culled, the children are playing, blissfully unaware, but the adults are all too knowlegable and aware, some are calmly accepting, you are angry.
This I think can be interpreted to mean that you are unconsciously attempting to cull your mind of thoughts that are based more on learned knowledge, and aiming to focus on or listen more to the childlike playful emotional or instinctive part of you during this period of change indicated by the dream theme of death.

Both dreams together have a strong theme of listening to and going with your intuition, rather than relying on intellect.

I wonder if you are having a problem with over-thinking at the moment. Your dreams both suggest you are getting frustrated with thinking or knowing too much, and you will benefit from trusting your emotions.

Thank you so much for responding, what a positive interpretation.

Lucid dreams are rare for me, it's unusual to have 2 on consecutive nights (although I sometimes listen to youtube channels of music for lucid dreaming).

I'm intrigued by the building in the first dream. Do you know it? Your building creates a warm, interior space. Outside - outside time, outside your real world - is where your parents were waiting. It feels to me like you were coming to terms with the goodbye, maybe for the first time for you?

The unfairness you feel in the second dream is you railing against the unfairness of death. We all have to acknowledge that when our parents go, it's likely we'll be next so we worry about our children. I think this is natural processing.

Lovely to have had two lucid dreams. How do you feel about them today?

I didn't know the building, it was sprawling and with lots of stairs, I thought it was part of a university.
I think I regret my time at university, thinking I should have picked a different course and not stayed with the bf I met there, so maybe a university dream is wish fulfilment (wanting to go back and change things, or be back in that environment with freedom and no real responsibility).

How I feel about the dreams now, is that I am delighted to have seen and hugged my mum again. The death dream felt that no one was listening to me, I think that was the most horrific bit. In spite of shouting, I had no voice.
It was a relief to find that I woke up when I died, but I'd already heard that (Anita moorjani) so maybe that was in the back of my mind.