estrangment from adult children

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Anyone estranged and how do you cope?

I am from ds 21 due to him committing a terrible crime against a close family member. .
It's very difficult as obviously I still love him regardless. His name is never mentioned and I have accepted I have to keep my urge to sob locked away in the back of my mind. Very very difficult. .
Been nearly 7 years since I have seen him.

Feeling very low tonight so I was looking for a thread like this. I'm estranged from all 4 of my darling children now aged 20-28. Have been for over 5 years now since their dad turned them against me during divorce. Horribly abusive marriage with mad man who threatened if I ever divorced him then he would take my children. I try to carry on but I heard last month that one has gotten engaged and another is getting married next month. It's tearing me apart and I must admit to needing a couple of glasses of wine to help me to sleep. It's a living bereavement and I m sick to death of friends and family telling me to get on with my life and enjoy my 'child free' years. (((Hugs)))