I know I’m at risk of coming under some criticism but I’m feeling really vulnerable at the moment so would appreciate people going easy on me.
I have two children - a 1 Yr old and an 8 Yr old- i love them loads, they are happy, smiley & socialable, 8 year old is doing well at school and generally great but I’m struggling to find enjoyment in being a Mum.
I am happily married DH is a brilliant dad, we have a nice life, i work part time. Husband works full time.
But I feel I should enjoy being a Mum, I find it every day hard, my eldest is in the answering back phase & not listening etc which I think is a huge factor in this and I’m not sure what to do? I just feel useless and rubbish as a mum, its the summertime & ive chosen to stay inside with my 1 Yr old because my eldest is out playing with her friends, but I feel like im letting him down by staying inside all day 🙈 ... their age gap is difficult at the moment because its hard to find something that entertains both of them.
im exhausted aswell from a busy week work wise, I just feel like my days off from work are never ever a day off, im always doing something or something needs to be done, ie housework, or an errand. I just feel like im struggling. And I feel guilty for not being the fun happy mum they deserve.
Am I alone in feeling like this?