Hi ,
I’ll try to keep it short but anyways I’m just struggling so much lately. I’m thinking about seeking therapy…
it all stems from not really having a mother figure in my life.
i wanted to be close with the mother in law and it seemed like she liked me and enjoyed my company until I found out she was talking about me behind my back. Which that didn’t bother me except she was trying to convince my husband I was a bad person. All lies she was saying and non sense until one day he woke up and told me because he started to believe it.
that I’m trying to take the grandkids away and not let them see them even though they would never babysit or ask about them. They would come over during nap time, which they knew snd then would say I’m trying to keep them from seeing their grandson… That I was a goldigger that will never work, I quit when I had my second child because I didn’t want him to be in daycare all the time. Was actually my husbands idea and we are more than fine financially. Even made fun of the wedding band I picked out they didn’t match my husbands, so our marriage wasn’t as strong according to her. I’m honestly not making this up.
On the other hand my mother is confrontational about everything. Never was loving with me growing up. If I would ask for advice it always flipped around to me being the problem somehow.
one day I was crying will holding my newborn son cause he never slept and I never got any help and I heard her mocking me crying to my dad in the adjacent room. No lie, it sounds surreal.
I just really have no support system and it’s so hard having young kids. I’m starting to think there is something wrong with me, half joking, since these people have been so horrible to me. I’ve always tried my best to be a nice, moral person and no one is perfect but I really don’t deserve this. 😭