I Love my two children to bits and oh I try so hard to be the best mother, problem is it just doesn't come naturally to me, I find it impossible to surive without sleep, I can't speak baby language, when we're stuck indoors I find every second a challenge. I feel I have totally let myself go and I was wondering do you reckon there are just natural mothers who take to motherhood instinctively and those like myself who often feel like a fish out of water and despite loving their children to bits sturggle on a hourly basically? 