Anyone else just totally and utterly fucked off with life?
Got absolutely no money. Literally have 68p in my account. I’m self employed as a carer because I’m unemployable due to ASD and ADHD. Never been able to hold a job for more than 2 years, burn out and can’t deal with people for more than a few hours. I live alone so all the finances fall to me. I am rubbish at dealing with money too and have got in financial mess previously - mainly through not having enough money.
My business is going down the pan. Haven’t been able to attract new clients for weeks. Have battled on with minimal savings but now have nothing at all. Every penny that comes in goes out and debts are building up. Feel like I’m robbing Peter to pay Paul all the time.
I’m trying to set up two new businesses but both require big investment in time and some financial investment - which I don’t have. Both require dealing with authorities which I find really hard.
I’m just so hacked off with life. I have also just come out the end of cancer treatment and am now infertile so won’t ever have kids. No chance of adopting either with my ASD and my former financial hiccups.
Meanwhile my sibling got the good genes. High flying job. Married and has money to burn. Multiple holidays per year - I haven’t been away for more than a decade. They have the absolute audacity to say they deserve it because they work hard. I fucking work hard too! But yet I can’t even afford to feed myself this week.
Not really sure what I want from this other than a rant to be honest. Not got anyone in real life who I can be honest with.