So I thought I was six and a half weeks pregnant.
Had an early scan about 5 weeks because of spotting - she could only see a 'cystic space' but said it was so early that's quite normal and to come back in a few days for a rescan to see the yolk sac.
Returned, and the sonographer could see what she thought was a faint yolk sac, but she couldn't confirm it. Had two blood tests and hcg was high and rising.
Just had a further scan (a week after the last one) and the cystic space has grown but there's no yolk sac still and no embryo at 6.5 weeks so basically no baby.
I'm devastated. I have horrible morning sickness. I want this thing gone but there's no sign of bleeding so they can't see it happening naturally at the moment.
I've been signed off work with a 'delayed miscarriage'.
The cruel thing is I have to go back for another scan in a week before they will give me a D&C or pessary to end this. I have to wait another week feeling sick before I can have help. Apparently the cystic space is 19mm and they have to wait for it to get to 25mm before they can proceed.
They haven't told me WHY this has happened - blighted ovum? I don't know.
I just want this over. This waiting feels so cruel. I refuse to cling to a tiny hope that in a week they'll see something - they know they won't - they've already said they wish they could give me the D&C or pessary but are not allowed.
Has anyone been in this situation? Or just a kind word.