Background: we have a DD (3.5). In 2017 we had five miscarriages. No explanation found, everything looks “right”. We decided to take 2018 off from trying as emotionally and physically I was just worn out. SIL is having a baby in a couple of months which we are over the moon about, and we’ve just given them all our baby stuff (buggy, stage 0 car seat, bouncy chair etc). I thought I was in a good place after last year, but getting all that stuff out and giving it away has floored me. 