Just wanted to share with anyone out there who has lost a baby... we lost our wee girl 2 weeks ago. We have no idea why. We may never know.
I was so fit and healthy the whole pregnancy - the midwife was so wonderful... and impressed with my attitude, my fitness, my eating and my health... I was so careful. Absolutely nothing at all to indicate that my baby's heart would just stop.
I held her for 3 days before I gave birth and that experience will be with me forever. It was so absolutely beautiful, so pure and incredible. She was so kind to me, I gave birth naturally, no induction or drugs, with no tearing and with only 2 big pushes in just 2 and a half hours. She was 7 lbs. I cut her cord and we held her till dawn, then slept with her as a family before she was laid to rest. She was perfect.
Today we sent her on her way back into the universe and we will hold those beautiful moments of the birth with her in our hearts forever. She was made by the love we share, she was half me and half my husband. One day we will try again... and in the mean time we will continue to smile and laugh and find beauty in the here and the now. That's all there really is.
Just wanted to share this special day, our wee girl gave us such a precious 9 months, feeling her wriggle to our singing and her small heels push my tummy, I know she was so happy. So loved.
Checking out of Mumsnet now but hope to return here one day... my strength and love to anyone out there going through what we are... one breath at a time.
x