Struggling with loss, still more to come

[Sussy83baby]

Started bleeding at 11 weeks, had scan and showed sac but no baby, had really big heavy bleed new years day where I was on the toilet for hours and couldn't move, went for scan on the 12th and they said there is still more to come its not all gone, I opted to do it naturally coz I don't want people staring at me it's personal, but I don't no how to feel, i feel empty and grieving and trying to stay strong as already have 2 children but it's not over and I feel guilty for wanted it to be as I wanted the baby so much, nothing has happened yet, I got to go back to the hospital on the 25th jan to see what's happening

Firstly I am very sorry for your loss. Because you have had such a bleed it may be a good idea to take some extra gentle iron like spatone. You need to replenish yourself after what has happened. Don't feel guilty for grieving either, despite already having children this was a wanted pregnancy that very sadly has not worked out. The scans are devastating when they confirm your worst fears however, you will get through it. Sourround yourself with positive people and don't be afraid to admit to loved ones you're having difficulty with coming to terms with what's happened. It gets better, I have had several mc's and I'm now proud mother of 4 boys! You didn't say how old your children are but you could maybe explain that you are not well (dependant on thier age and understanding) and mummy feels a bit sad. Keep going, you're doing well just letting off steam here xx