Cannot be bothered

[Enigma52]

Menopause is hitting me hard. Has done since 48, now 53.

I was fine on my HRT, but had to stop
once secondary BC was diagnosed. I also have to take hormone blockers, to block any further oestrogen.

No get up and go, literally forcing myself to do stuff. I'm fed up. No libido, angry and snappy.

I'm due back to work next week after a long period of cancer sickness. No idea how to gear myself up for that. I just want to stay in my bed.

Any advice please?

being back to work will help. will get you up and about and back in a routine

Have you had any counselling?

Is it a phased return to work?
You sound low or depressed and its not surprising, you've had a tough time.

Yes a phased return.
I do feel low, I don't know why. My cancer is under control ( for now) and my job is still waiting for me.

I just have a deep sense of doom
and gloom in my body.

I've been getting myself up and dressed earlier and earlier, in preparation for work. I've started little journeys in my car ( after a period of not driving at all) and I'm trying to get more jobs done in the house, as my energy levels improve.

I think it's the anxiety of being off work for 8 months, menopause kicking my arse and dealing with this cancer and the drugs I'm having to take.

I keep thinking of all the young energetic teachers and TA's at work and am wondering how an earth I am
going to fit back in. Maybe a new job is called for, I don't know.