Hey guys.
Been mumsnetting for a while. Some of you may know from my other thread that i am pregnant with my first child and that the father is not with me. I went in to early labour on thursday night, which was stopped. The reason i need yu guys help is probably gonna sound funny to some of you. Being in a ward surrounded by couples and new babies for the first time i felt really alone and frightened. I want to feel connected to the baby i have fought to have and yet i feel so terrified. My whole world is about to change and i am for the first time really scared that i wont do it right. Scared that i will be a bad mum, or that in becoming a single mum i have let myself down. Scared that i will miss my freedom so much i will resent him. Scared that i will never trust anyone again. I feel so hurt and lonely at the moment. I dont have a birth partner and there were all these big extended families there and husbands being so excited. Just for one second i wanted that. Someone to hold my hand and tell me i would be ok. someone to share it with. Am i being weak? did any of you lot feel like this. I really just needed to get that off my chest. i feel really sad and lonely.