i can't take it anymore

[purpley]

i am so fed up this baby he doesn't sleep day and time he can get out of bed easy i don't know what do i swear i am done with him but there no else who needs him he is the biggest mistake i have ever made now i want to kill myself i don't have a life anyway why suffer anymore.

Sorry just seen you can't leave him in cot as he climbs out of it! Is there anywhere safe you can put him so you can just walk away for 5 mins, Even if you could go hide in the loo?!?
Another possibly crap suggestion- have you any friends with a similar age and you can take their kid for 2 hours and you re pay favour? So you get 2 hrs off? Like a babysitting circle? Sorry if useless suggestions... Just trying to think what you might be able to do to get a break