Sooooo bloody tired......am I doing enough though?!

[Blakey3166]

Hi all,

Sooooo , I'm so tired , so bloody tired!
I m up at 5.30-6am every morn, I shower/dry hair etc whilst simultaneously getting ds(7) up breakfast dressed etc.whilst loading a wash, other minor household chores.we leave at 7.45 for breakfast club, then I race to my job.
I'm in policing so am then on feet for around 9hrs- and then do it all in reverse.
Tea, showers, homework, paperwork, hoovering etc.
Tonight I thought, I'll cram in some ironing too before bed, but ........ I've just put ds to bed and I'm bloody bloody knackered and just want to sit down an watch tv for half hr before my eyes close. I'm so dog tired. I don't know whether it's me, should I be forcing myself more, is there something wrong with me to be worn out by 8.30(eeeeek am I old?) or am I doing enough an should cut myself some slack..... Id love to get your advice?!?!

Oh your fabulous, you've made me feel so much better and not so old or weird!!!!
I think, due to my job requiring so much mental and physical energy it zaps the life out of you!
I can't go part time as there are no part time officers. I have got a temporary flexible working pattern at moment.i think as I said before it's could be a winter blues thing and perhaps I should just cut myself some slack and not try to keep on top of it so much. I'm quite OCD so find it hard.
Btw a deep clean I describe is mopping all floors, good polish/dust every surface, wipe etc clean bathroom- change all the beds an lots of ironing ! generally do the whole house. In summer that includes garden stuff to !! I do make room for fun but my fun would be quite dull an just means sitting in garden watching kids on trampoline etc
Anyways it's nice to know I'm probably not the only one to feel on a hamster wheel and that I'm probably doing more than some ppl half my age or with less responsibilty . Mental slap to self and cut some slack xxxxx

Amen to that! So glad you feel better. It broke my heart reading your post - you need to start giving yourself credit where it's due :-)

A hamster wheel is a good description. My day sounds similar to yours OP, except come 8pm I have to force myself to study as I clearly didn't have enough on my plate.
I am trying very hard to lower my standards but it doesn't come easy as I need a clean/tidy house for my own sanity.
Fwiw I think it's perfectly normal to feel knackered in the evenings. Sometimes i'm so tired I could cry. And of course there's the guilt every working parent has that we're not spending enough 'quality time' with our kids. I agree re winter though, I have much more energy in the lighter evenings.
Go easy on yourself, it's tough having all the responsibility all of the time.