Yeah that really!
I'm in a rather large pickle! And whatever decision i make people get hurt!
We also have two young dc!
Dp knows about her as I've been friends with her for over 3 years and have been with her before so I'm obviously not supposed to be seeing her anymore! 
My mum will disown me 'if my issues arise again' this has been said on more than one occasion!
I do love dp, we have had a very rocky relationship but he is trying his best and changed a lot for the better.
I know I've done wrong so I don't need telling
I don't know what I want from this just wanted to say it to someone 