I can't stop crying. Need some positivity!

[ohsheglows]

I'm doing a 3 cycle package at Create Fertility. The first round I got 5 eggs and one embryo good enough to freeze, the second round I got 8, again one to freeze. Had a 3 month break, found out my DH had high DNA fragmentation. Started my third round this time only having 3 follicles, got 2 eggs and we got the news yesterday that neither of them fertilised through ICSI.

I felt sick. I was confident that at least one might make it as we'd always had one embryo out from the rounds, also part of me wishes we went for IVF instead of ICSI as we had more fertilise when we did IVF, but they pushed for ICSI because of the low fert rate.

Now we don't have any fresh transfers, they've asked if we want to thaw one and transfer tomorrow as a day 3. Im nervous it's not going to thaw. After the news yesterday I just wanted to give up and cry and cry and cry. But it's so hard to stay positive whilst taking all these meds too! These flipping pessaries are the worst as well.

Does anyone have any similar stories or stories of hope?

Thanks all

@ohsheglows YES very normal!! Think of it this way, you're 1dp5dt ... most people don't start to feel anything until at least 4 or 5 days post 5dt but it's also v normal to have no symptoms at all. I just don't think you can tell either way.

Hi everyone, I caved and tested at 11dp3dt and it was a BFN. Feel pretty devastated to be honest. I only have one more in the freezer, a poorer grade, and I'm not feeling confident at all with the next FET.

I just can't help feeling like I am doing something wrong. Or just with being a low amh'er, maybe my egg quality is rubbish?

Just want to thank you all for being so kind and being there for me over the last couple of weeks.

@ohsheglows I am really sorry to hear this. Please don't think you are doing anything wrong, I think unfortunately there is an element of luck as to whether a particular embryo is viable. Wishing you all the luck for your next transfer x

@ohsheglows just checking in and seeing if there is any update ? Xx

@strawberrysummer19 unfortunately it was a BFN. I'm devastated. I only have one more in the freezer. I suspect that the embryo is dying off after day 3. I'm now wondering whether I should culture the day 3 to day 5 to see if it survives to blast stage before wasting money on another transfer 🤷🏻‍♀️

@ohsheglows I'm sorry to hear that
I'm not too sure - can your clinic advise you on what's best to do ? X