I am so sorry ❤️ I have had recurrent losses (5) and it is so difficult. Especially when you have a cause and a treatment plan, it's a real shock.
Reach out to the Samaritan's if you're feeling very low, sometimes I find it helpful to talk to people who aren't close to me. I've found joining threads on here and Facebook for recurrent losses also helpful, although it can get a bit overwhelming at times, especially when others are pregnant again, so I do have to limit myself.
I have had some baby loss counselling via Petals and that did help me, but I have had some dark periods since and I'm under a maternal wellbeing service now, despite not having a baby or being pregnant.
Are you being supported by a recurrent miscarriage clinic?
Focus on what you need at the moment, are you at work? I took time off after miscarriage and phased back in. But I tried to get fresh air everyday, watching familiar TV programmes (it helps with my anxiety), more recently I've tried things like cross stitch as I still can't focus to read a book.
Try not to pressure yourself to be OK, you're grieving and in shock ❤️❤️ @Rachae xx