I feel like I'm never getting anywhere and that the house is a tip but I've taken two days off to clean it, looked round once I'd done everything I can possibly do and its still RUBBISH. Every wall needs painting. The sofas are threadbare, the varnished floors need redoing, the stair carpet is ancient, the skirting board is scuffed....
Its going to take money isnt it? Lots of it. It takes up so much psychological space feeling like you live in a mess and I have just realised that there is nothing more I can do other than save up. For a long time