It is in terrible terrible condition right now and I can't bear it anymore. I have 2 young children and I feel such crippling guilt that they don't have a nice cosy home to call their own and it's literally making me suicidal.
Backstory - I'm struggling a lot with my mental health and have done my whole life but particularly the last year or so. I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder & PTSD but it's at least a month until I can speak to a psychiatrist and discuss medication. My house is such a mess I don't even know where to start, I've not let anybody come in for over a year and it's got to the point where I wake up everyday and cry. The children's room is clean and tidy but everywhere else is filthy. I have mountains and mountains of clothes all the way back to new born that Ive never sorted. I need to figure out a way to tackle it so as I can get better and give my children a nicer life, I'm honestly scared what I'll do if I can't tackle this. Please go easy on me as I know this is not acceptable but I'm just so depressed I can barely pull myself out of bed some days. Does anyone have any tips on where to start or how to make it more manageable?