Mosschops' slippery slope back to smoking hell .......HELP )-:

[mosschops30]

Well after about 7 weeks off the fags, I had a couple on a night out, then another couple on another night out, then today I bought 10 because me and dh had a row.

I dont want to start again, but I can feel it becoming the norm again I dont want it to. I want to wake up tomorrow and hate it like I have been doing

It's ok! I have smoked off and on since I was 12 (yes, 12)
Currently I am not smoking, but I smoke now and then when I am out. And occasionally I cadge one of an evening if I have had a shitty day.
If you want one now, then have one. then wash teh rest so you can't smoke them.

I have found this approach works for me as my brain still uses the 'forbidden fruit is best' train of thought.

Only rules I have is I never smoke in front of DC's or when I have to go near them afterwards, so either at night when they are sleeping or when I am out alone and can change before seeing them.

Don't beat yourself up, a lapse is a lapse, not a failure.

Sorry, veyr waffly and forgot to say that just because you want to smoke now doesn't mean that tomorrow you won't hate it again.

Another 'hadny hint' is get a jar you can seal, put some fag butts in it and some water. Leave it and everytime you think smoking isnt that bad, have a sniff. it's grim.

Thanks chirpy, I dont feel completely useless now after reading your post.

I am going to have one now before bed and then bin the rest so I dont have any here in the morning and will use my inhalator tomorrow.

As you say, no need to see it as a failure, I can carry on. Thanks

Don't be too hard on yourself, christmosschops. 7 weeks is a very good start, and when you stop again it will be for longer. We get better at stopping habits. I bought my first pack of fags for 5 years and smoked all of them. I have no idea why I bothered but there we go. I am inclined to smoke where there is alcohol and other people are smoking.

When I first stopped and started again I was advised to just smoke for a bit then stop again, instead of beating myself up every time I had a fag.

You'll get there!

Well Im glad I threw them away last night because I would have smoked today, but have not so far and am doing ok

Well done!
Like I say, you had a lapse, but carry on, you did it once, it gets easier!