TW - mention of suicide
So I developed tinnitus in June 2022 after having microsuction on my left ear to remove earwax, in the previous month which caused hearing loss in the left ear. It started as hissing then a few weeks later a sound like a running engine started. I've had it constantly ever since and totally lost my appetite with the stress of it all. I can hear it over everything including hairdryer which is loud. Ive felt so ill with it that Ive been housebound since it started and got worse last year and basically been bedridden since about last June and havent been able to shower or wash my hair since Nov/Dec. I know I'm an extreme case but has anyone else suffered like this and if so how have you coped? It's just me and my partner, no support from family. I am more than ready to throw in the towel and already went down to the local river in December ready to throw myself in. GP etc no help. Desperate, in tears every day, its horrendously loud.