I think I have gone mad

[newlifenewname]

Really

why?

Are you hearing voices?

are you currently in cardiff city centre singing through a toy microphone?

OOh if you are, do say- i'll be there in twenty minutes

Seriously, nlnn, are you OK?

(btw I meant in cardiff , not to observe said madness)

I don't know, I am in a state I think one could see this coming from all the shite I've posted lately.

Thanks LL

I truly don't know what's got into me. Suddenly my coping mechanisms got v. unhealthyand all has gone tits up

sorry nlnn, shouldnt have been flippant.

Didn't send dc to school today and then ignored them all day

You've been through lots lately, it is going to hit you. Sadly there's nothing you can do to avoid it- it always hts, eventually. Do try and remember that it's the first step towards a new balanced you- but girl you're far from insane, you're one of the more balanced posters on here (haven't seen your latest posts but we all are entitled to a blip- I've had many)

Think you have my e-mail if you need a chat

X

PSi obv. need a hand but if this thread gets too self indulgent i mightrun off

One day.

That's all it is.

One paltry, pathetic meaningless day.

have you got someone to talk to?

Thanks peachy too, and Dirty Gertie

Do you think it is just catch up time?

My space key is knackered by the way

i think its shock time- a delayed reaction

It'd be very bizarre if you didn't crash at some point wouldn't it?

You're good with advice- what would you say to a friend in the same place?

I suspect, don't be too hard on yourself, and take the time you need to get back on board

what has happened?

Are you OK?

Have you got someone around to help you?

in summary:

Shagging and getting hurt
Telling abusive ex maybe we should get married after all
starving myself
not taking dc to school
arguing with headteacher
cancelling meet with mumsnetter this afternoon because ds was pooing all over the place and i lost it at that point

spending money i don't have

And the custy thingheregot tome to

too
how do i ever getmy self esteem back?

Time

it comes back

remember its true wjhat they say- it looks darkest when you're on the way up and looking down

I have read some of your threads before newlife. Are you getting help from the docs? I went through a period in my life when everything was all too much and I couldn't think or function normally. ADs did help me on my road to recovery. Is that an option for you?

I was takingthem but stopped because they made me ill if i didn't eatfood with them and i'm not eating food at the mo.

I'm not drinking btw. my space bar is utterly fecked.

Has the doc recommended any kind of therapy?