I suffer from chronic pain due to an accident 2 years ago and I'm so fucking fed up of it.
I need to lose weight but do that I have to move, which I can't do because of the pain. My main pain relief is zomorph, with oramorph for breakthrough pain, as well as paracetamol and ibuprofen. When I ask my GP for a referral to the pain clinic I'm put off and told to try yet another drug.
So far it's been: cocodamol, naproxen, morphine patches, tramadol, gabapentin. All of which gave me more side effects than benefits.
I feel I've hit rock bottom, on a good day I can get loads done so I overdo it and then end up in bed for 3 or 4 days.
In the last couple of days I've been reading about a pain management system called pacing, where you get a baseline of what you can do before the pain gets too much and then the theory is that you can pace yourself. This means you stop before the pain gets too bad, causing a flare up.
I was so positive about it yesterday, when I didn't have too much pain, but today when I am hurting I just feel what's the point.
I'm not depressed, been there done that and I know how it manifests in me.