Just kind of getting advice/passing the time in the waiting room.
I've booked an appt as I keep getting heart pains and down my arm and sore boobs (obv unrelated) but this weekend an on going issue got worse and I'm going to talk to the doc about it while I can and don't have chance to pussy out. (I think the docs going to think I'm a hyperchondriac with all this)
So here goes... It's very embarrassing
Every so often there's a lot of blood and clots in my poo and after it actually sort of sits in my bum (I think) and comes out quite rarely but still come out.
I'm hoping it's just a tear (but who tears that often??) and that's the excuse I've used to put it off but I'm really scared it'll be something terrible.
Yesterday was my friends sixth anniversary of passing from non-hodgekins (spell) lymphoma and I have a daughter so really can't be messing about being childish.
I'm not looking forward to any of this.
When I spoke to the nurse about it at my pill check she seemed as embarrassed as I did and just said talk to the doctor. She was more bothered about the 3kg I'd gained in about 9 months 
Wish me luck...